All Is Not Lost

& i thought i lost everything after being reprimanded in class for being uncooperative. I guess i was wrong. Everything was not lost, especially cooking. I was like a Mako Shiraishi or Shinken Pink now when it comes on cooking after a failed cooking attempt from last Monday even if i just cooked some hotdogs. But good thing i bounced back after i did a yummy sauteed hotdogs with onions in a ketchup sauce. Even if i watched a bunch of clips from Cooking With Dog on YT, i found some must-try recipes & find some kitchen utensils from pots & pans to utensils & so much more. Back in the days when i was in a new school, cooking classes happens once or twice every week or month. But now, what if i try to cook up something not just for myself? I have my mom's cookbook which she got as a gift for her wedding & it's a year older than me. I had thoughts about saving up my money to buy some Toku stuff, including a ShoudoPhone from Shinkenger. Then place a Kawaii CP charm on it so it will be like either Mako or Kotoha. But i don't mind if i have bad critics just because i'm a girl & collects Toku stuff. 

"You think i'm still the girl who cried wolf from 2006? You think i committed suicide just because i was tagged as the uncooperative girl in class? Think again fools! I just moved on & i don't give a damn about you guys giving me a bad critic on who i am now! So deal with it or don't wait for me to turn on my berserk mode like you guys found a monster unleashed inside me! By the way, the monster inside me wants to be unleashed after you treated me like a fool then."

Even if my good girl personality is gone after what happened 8 years ago, not all was lost. That includes my love for cooking. Recently, my Otouto-chan promised me that we will cook pancakes & i thought about buying a waffle maker so i can cook waffles. It would be awesome if i cook a yummy Pork or Chicken Tonkatsu served with some steamed or fried rice & a soup on the side like the one that i found on the net recently. I remember my mom used to cook Tonkatsu before, especially with a mushroom soup gravy on the side. For dessert? I would just go crazy for cupcakes. I even had a goal to create Red Velvet cupcakes with a Boukenger Team Emblem Topper. (Like Bouken Red is trapped in a cupcake!) I suddenly remember the moment from last January when i stumble upon a cookbook related on cupcakes. It would be awesome if i waste time on cooking like back in the days of my HS student life from being the new kid in school to a High School Junior who tries to repair the broken pieces of her life. At this rate, i would think if it wasn't for Mako, i would never thought my cooking lessons experience from school will be gone after an unfortunate student life incident. But in my belief, all is not lost, despite my good girl life is destroyed, but not my love for cooking, hobbies & a whole lot more. Actually, i would think it was also my younger siblings who made me realized that all is not lost despite the 10.16.06 personal life tragedy. Although my life is destroyed like a shattered mirror plus the monster inside me was unleashed & i ended up being a bitch, recovery process could be slow as of this moment & it will take time, i would think i'm getting started to recover from an event in life where instead of taking revenge on the teacher who turned me into the bitch i just ended up then, i would just rather be a wanderer. A wanderer searching for the missing pieces of life. & i thought all is lost after what happened 8 years ago? I was wrong, all is not lost anyway, that includes my love for cooking. Anyway, i would think i would cook up a hot bowl of Ramen now the chilly winds started to come in & i'm about to crave for some soup. But at least for someone like me, what happened in the past just gave me a lesson to go further in the present, making sure the future is bright like Imouto-chan's life lessons.

The Rain Clouds From 8 Years Ago

"Who the hell are those 2 celebrities who would try to return?! Do you think i'll give them a nice return? Well, i don't!"

I think i just love the rainy season, even there are some days that it will be a clear day. Because from the time i was in Junior Year HS, to the times i was a curious-minded Otaku, starting to dream while sitting at the internet cafe on some cloudy days. I started to think, i guess i would enjoy my Otaku life. Then, little by little, my Otaku life is getting started to go on a higher note like it's been my Junior Year HS days, maybe i could carry that until i finally become a Senior Year HS student. The truth is, i was trying to think on how come there are 2 local celebrities who are losers from a reality talent search who are trying to get their careers back in the form of publicity stunts? Oh please, they're trying to do everything to get their careers back, but it hits the disaster lane. Maybe the next thing they would do is to tell everyone that they're back, but i guess if they return, disasters will hit them. That's why i would wish that i would end up watching a Toku marathon while waiting for the UAAP Games come July, don't mind that come 5 months from now, that's the month of June, the rain falls hard & i just realized that June is my favorite month, ever. No, it's not because of the rainy days & the start of classes. It was a long story anyway. It does happen thru the years, that was since 8 years ago on the 1st day of classes when i realized that i'm in the 3rd stage of High School: Junior Year. But when i finally returned for Senior Year HS, i don't mind if there some celebrities who lost their shine after being considered losers on the local reality talent search they joined in the past decade, they're trying to do some publicity stunts that could destroy them. I know what happened once to Dara's ex-BF, he did a lot of publicity stunts that resulted in an ill-fated car accident that almost took his life, oh i miss the part that he died, almost there for getting the revenge i need. But never mind, if he decided to return to the local showbiz scene, trying to surpass his K-Pop ex-GF, i guess he would try to get his career back. Oh well, i would rather watch the UAAP Games instead.

From the times i was quiet, sitting next to a computer in any internet cafe around the neighborhood or at the malls, i put on the provided pair of headphones so i can listen to any music while checking out the net, back on the days where i could receive comments with pics on my Friendster account which i would end up receiving comments with pics of Boukenger, KR Kabuto or any Super Sentai or Kamen Rider series, especially during the Christmas season. But it seems like at the start of the new decade, the time 2010 rolled in, my Otaku life wasn't the same for me. Long story, i know that being an Otaku girl would be quite hard, but i guess i can handle it since i handled it since 2007, the time where i was a wandering Otaku. But good thing it's been 7 years, the math is simple: 7+7+14. I wish back in the days where i was wandering about being an Otaku, i would don short hair like Natsumi Shinohara/Yellow Racer. Because donning a simple short, thin & layered hairdo by the time i'm getting started to know more about the world of the Otaku. My Imouto-chan was the one who introduced me to Crunchyroll & the rest to say is history. I would think that life back in the past decade, from 2006 until 2009 was the wandering years, then from 2010 until this year, it's the years where i would do everything to make some of my dreams into reality. The dreamer who didn't give up & surpasses a lot of trials. When the rain falls, especially during the dark, cloudy days of the 2nd half of 2007, a shocking news in the local showbiz scene ended up the result of heavy rains. Actually, Dara's ex-BF would rather not answer the questions why he broke the heart of his K-Pop ex-GF back 7 years ago, he's trying to play hide & seek with the press. But i guess it's about time for him to stop this game & i would point the Ichigan Buster or Gaburevolver directly to him & tell him to answer the questions that was thrown on him before i pull the trigger. But i guess the rainy days on the dark, cloudy days during the 2nd half of 2007 gave me the reason to be an Otaku & don short, thin & layered hair.

The 2nd Multiple Of 7

"There's the light at the end of the darkest day of 2007!"

Does the departure of Sandara Park will bring back the career of his ex-BF? I guess what he just thought that he'll get his career back was wrong due to a lot of turn-around's like when he found out that his ex-GF is now in a 4-piece K-Pop girl group. I guess for him to return to the local showbiz scene while his ex-GF is now successful in her home country of South Korea, he would rather do a lot of publicity stunts to get his career back, 1 of them is making his new GF pregnant & then there's the car accident that almost took his life. & then back 2 years ago, he showed up with another reality-show-loser-type-product whose boyfriend died in a tragic murder back in 2011 showed up in a talk show, trying their best to get their careers back. But last year, it was almost a shocker that the mom of Dara's ex-BF announced on TV that her son will return to the local showbiz scene anytime soon to make sure he will still be an actor. Great, i smell trouble in that because he was the main reason why Dara left the Philippines. So 7 years later, i would think he just did a wrong move of hating someone from a different race. I guess he would just ended up trying to be a versatile actor (Really?!) just like how his mom said so by the time during the car accident. On the other hand, i would just forget about his return because he would rather do a lot of publicity stunts, telling everyone to forget his Korean ex-GF. I guess i would just try to catch up on my favorite Super Sentai & Kamen Rider series because instead of watching a movie or a TV show of Dara's ex-BF, especially the last movie he's with Sandara Park back in the Boukenger era, i would just end up watching the 199 Hero Great Battle or watching a live UAAP game. Or even for the better, do the cleaning before a brand new school year starts within this year, because that will be the hardest of the hard. Just before i'm officially Senior Year HS-bound by next year & this year will be Tokkyuger is all the rage before we found out about the 40th Super Sentai Team, how time flies fast because we're 2 teams & 2 years away from that! For now, i guess i changed my mind on Tokkyuger, i'll watch that, too many reasons for that.

In mathematics, the half of 14 is 7, so for now, it's been 7 years since the darkest day of the lives of some people known as the departure of Sandara Park. We know who's to blame. But the question about that wasn't been answered for years, the unanswered question of 7 years, why Dara's ex-BF doesn't want to answer that question? Maybe he was trying to play hide & seek with the press. If only he can answer that question immediately, everything will be clear, but not, he doesn't want to answer that question since he's happy with his new love life. But instead of watching how Dara's ex-BF do everything to return to the local showbiz scene, trying to surpass his K-Pop ex-GF, i would just do some things like i did back 7 years ago. But like the time back in 2007, my hair will be short, thin & layered & yes, i'm turning on my Otaku mode. Like i would just buy the 2 Kyoryuger Red SS Hero Beast Battery Bundles that i'm raving to have even if i look quite girly in a simple way. Don't mind if i could buy that with me looking like a girl, i remember that from 1999 when i began to buy my 1st Gundam Wing Endless Waltz model kit 2 months before entering 5th Grade. But before entering Senior Year HS is a different story, it's like more of buying Toku toys but yet, i'm a girl. I've been there & done that since 3 years ago, at least girls who buy anything Toku are rare, like when did you see a girl buying of all toys, Toku toys? Kinda weird, huh? But not really, it seems fun. The result? Guess i don't know, it's like i'm into this because of being an Otaku. Just don't mind about me being a girl because this is the field i've been following since 2007. The crazy part is that most of the Anime & Toku shows i had watched since the past years, or let's just say since 7 years ago was actually a 3-word sentence: recommended by friends. Don't mind if i found out for myself the path i got curious for to enter since 2007 was the right path for me after Sandara Park said goodbye to her 2nd home country. Good thing the path was right, but i guess in case her ex-BF returns to the local showbiz scene, ok, i'll watch Tokkyuger instead.