& i thought i lost everything after being reprimanded in class for being uncooperative. I guess i was wrong. Everything was not lost, especially cooking. I was like a Mako Shiraishi or Shinken Pink now when it comes on cooking after a failed cooking attempt from last Monday even if i just cooked some hotdogs. But good thing i bounced back after i did a yummy sauteed hotdogs with onions in a ketchup sauce. Even if i watched a bunch of clips from Cooking With Dog on YT, i found some must-try recipes & find some kitchen utensils from pots & pans to utensils & so much more. Back in the days when i was in a new school, cooking classes happens once or twice every week or month. But now, what if i try to cook up something not just for myself? I have my mom's cookbook which she got as a gift for her wedding & it's a year older than me. I had thoughts about saving up my money to buy some Toku stuff, including a ShoudoPhone from Shinkenger. Then place a Kawaii CP charm on it so it will be like either Mako or Kotoha. But i don't mind if i have bad critics just because i'm a girl & collects Toku stuff.
"You think i'm still the girl who cried wolf from 2006? You think i committed suicide just because i was tagged as the uncooperative girl in class? Think again fools! I just moved on & i don't give a damn about you guys giving me a bad critic on who i am now! So deal with it or don't wait for me to turn on my berserk mode like you guys found a monster unleashed inside me! By the way, the monster inside me wants to be unleashed after you treated me like a fool then."
Even if my good girl personality is gone after what happened 8 years ago, not all was lost. That includes my love for cooking. Recently, my Otouto-chan promised me that we will cook pancakes & i thought about buying a waffle maker so i can cook waffles. It would be awesome if i cook a yummy Pork or Chicken Tonkatsu served with some steamed or fried rice & a soup on the side like the one that i found on the net recently. I remember my mom used to cook Tonkatsu before, especially with a mushroom soup gravy on the side. For dessert? I would just go crazy for cupcakes. I even had a goal to create Red Velvet cupcakes with a Boukenger Team Emblem Topper. (Like Bouken Red is trapped in a cupcake!) I suddenly remember the moment from last January when i stumble upon a cookbook related on cupcakes. It would be awesome if i waste time on cooking like back in the days of my HS student life from being the new kid in school to a High School Junior who tries to repair the broken pieces of her life. At this rate, i would think if it wasn't for Mako, i would never thought my cooking lessons experience from school will be gone after an unfortunate student life incident. But in my belief, all is not lost, despite my good girl life is destroyed, but not my love for cooking, hobbies & a whole lot more. Actually, i would think it was also my younger siblings who made me realized that all is not lost despite the 10.16.06 personal life tragedy. Although my life is destroyed like a shattered mirror plus the monster inside me was unleashed & i ended up being a bitch, recovery process could be slow as of this moment & it will take time, i would think i'm getting started to recover from an event in life where instead of taking revenge on the teacher who turned me into the bitch i just ended up then, i would just rather be a wanderer. A wanderer searching for the missing pieces of life. & i thought all is lost after what happened 8 years ago? I was wrong, all is not lost anyway, that includes my love for cooking. Anyway, i would think i would cook up a hot bowl of Ramen now the chilly winds started to come in & i'm about to crave for some soup. But at least for someone like me, what happened in the past just gave me a lesson to go further in the present, making sure the future is bright like Imouto-chan's life lessons.
