Last Sunday, i was flabbergasted with one thing i don't even want to recall. What was that? A former classmate of mine tagged me on 3 pics that i don't even want to see again! ARGH, i was just enjoying my new life & BOOM! A part of my past is there to tell me to remember the time, i said i don't want to remember it. But i guess there's a part in my past life back in the year 2006 where i had fun, but the day of October 16, 2006 just brought me to the dark side. But hey, i have no idea why i end up crying like a little girl back then. Like i ignored my former classmate's phone calls due to that i have a heartburn back then. Army-chan aka Rei was worried about me, should i tell her about the dark secret of mine that gives me pain? If only i have the right time, but if i'm ready to tell her about this, i would rather tell her about it & give her a hug, i really need some help right now. More than just getting myself surrounded with Toku-related toys & tons of pics of my favorite crushes. (Who's up for the dare to post some pics of Mario Maurer on my FB wall? Start a flood of it if you guys can.)
After yesterday's 4th straight pre-season tourney gone wrong for Ateneo against their bitter rivals, La Salle, i was thinking, should i excuse the next set of class reunions on the 2nd half of 2011 just to watch live games of UAAP & go to SM Megamall with my Auntie to attend some Anime cons? Just because i don't want to show up like the girl who i was last October 16, 2006. I'm just not ready to show up & cry & run away. Demi Lovato thought about what you can hide when you smile, although smiling is a good option to hide the sadness inside, the pain inside still remains like a wound that never fades & it will take years or it will never fade, it might stay forever. I just thought of forgetting who i was back on October 16, 2006 until i decided not to show up again, giving up my Senior Year at COLF just to head to ADMU & DLSU. Now, i will go back to school via distance learning aka home study, but when it comes why i didn't attend the class reunion, it's just a honest lie away. Wound might be healed & faded by the test of time, but the pain remains inside. In search of the things that could cheer me up, it might not be a piece of cake to find it. Being only in a room with a friend who is ready to know my dark yet painful secret is there to cheer me up.
There's no turning back.
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