After 5 Years, What Happened?

I started to ask myself, did i change a lot for the better? Maybe yes, maybe no, or maybe not enough. The answer is yes but not enough. I would rather wait for October 16 for that to happen, by November, all of us in the family will go to Chinatown. If the memories of 5 years ago will be a far cry from the same day 5 years ago to the same day this year, the main difference will be a quiet rainfall, from June 20, 2011. A quiet rainfall full of granted promises & birthday wishes for my little sister who turns 22. I would even think that my mom would love to grant all of the promises she kept for me, more than just the UAAP Magazine 2011 edition. More than just the latest issue of Candy Magazine, more than just colorful accessories, colorful plastic containers in different types & sizes, more than a bunch of makeup & nail colors to fill my vanity carry-all's, or even more than just a pair of either or both black-colored, closed-toe boots &/or booties which turned out to be it will be my first pair. October 16? Just a day of gimicks to celebrate my little sister's 22nd birthday. November? A day in Manila Chinatown, talk about a day in a place that we in the family would love to explore.

My little sister told me that if i want to learn Mandarin, i would rather reach for her New Practical Chinese Reader workbook & read every single page to learn more Mandarin. I could even think that October 16, 2011 will never be like October 16, 2006. No more heavy rain falls like there was just a typhoon passed by. It will be just a light rainfall even if the skies are dark, just some white skies with traces of gray skies. Oh great, this means i need to use my lavender-colored umbrella. Just because what i did last June 20 was kinda awkward because i didn't brought an umbrella along! But never mind, i would rather look forward for that weekend to come, then i will look forward for November for that Chinatown gimick as what my mom planned. There were questions that rushed into my head if i stopped living the way i am during the darkest day of my life & decided to live the way i am now. Maybe the truth is, it's a far cry. Me right now is a far cry from who i am in the darkest day of my life dated 5 years ago. If only i could compare my old self to that day to myself now with a shorter hairdo that Dianna Agron donned now. (Ok, the truth is i haven't watch I Am Number Four lately.) 

Ok, so maybe i'm still confused with the short hairdo i want to don lately. But what about donning Dianna Agron's short hairdo that she donned lately? Bright thinking. That might be the girly bedhead bob that i've been looking for as of this moment. But somehow, if could rather compare who i am in the past to who i am lately. It's a far cry after all.