It all happened last March 16, 2011, my mom & i decided to drop by at COLF to pay my little brother's unpaid school fees so he can graduate, it was a day before my birthday & i feel quite nervous heading to my former school. But as i walk on the concrete road on my former school, like it was an ordinary day like i used to do when i was still schooling at COLF. Suddenly, the cashier at the school registrar could ask me about if i still remember my former classmates, mentioning names of my former classmates. I said i don't remember all of them, i said 'Ateneo brainwashed me.' It's just because i don't want to find out for myself that the ghosts of my past life in COLF haunt me, even if i'm in my Adidas or Nike-Ateneo Team Gears. But i guess if my former COLF classmates could haunt me, i don't know what to, should i cry? Or should i face it? That was the question with still the answer haven't found. It's not like if i could beg my auntie a bunch of times about the DVD's that i want to watch, especially Boukenger. She could rather slap the Boukenger DVD on my face, telling me not to attend a class reunion & waste my time watching Boukenger. The best punchline ever? She could say, "Count how many time Mitsuomi Takahashi does a worried look all over this series & think that's you."
Mom could love to keep promises on me just to be happy, she was trying to shed out the old image i brought to who i was since October 16, 2006. Trying to get a new hairdo, wearing girly shoes like i'm recently want to have my first pair of closed-toe booties to buying several magazines of several interests. But i feel to myself that the ghosts of my past student life could haunt me, telling me to attend some class reunions to show up at COLF at the school's new location. Do you think i should do that? Yes or no. But i would only go to COLF if my parents are up to pay my unpaid school fees. It's not just about this is the right time for me to go back to my student life in a new turn, but it's also the right time to face the fears of the past. Should i press the panic button? Maybe i should. But after all of that tension, it's time to take a deep breath. Life for me right now is like the several rainy days of this year, like the rainy day of June 20, 2011. Yup, life for me as of the moment is like the rainy day of 1 day i just could not forget. But the truth is, no material thing can cover up the darkest day of my life back 5 years ago. The thing that can cover that up, is just a smile.
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