Honest Lies & Painful Memories

Painful memories can't be changed, but making an honest lie could be a good decision to hide the pain, I kept telling to myself that i cannot attend the class reunion due to that i was busy with some things. No, it was just because i was like i was brainwashed by the legendary rivals of the UAAP, are you guys thinking? But i was trying to hide the pain of my past life when i was in high school, i was a High School Junior when i suffered a painful part of my past life that could almost shatter my identity into pieces. This is like a game of hide & seek where i need to escape from being 'it'. But what happened last March 16 is like i just won the game of hide & seek. But i told to myself that i don't want to play that game anymore because it just took a toll on me. I even told to myself that i don't want to remember that i was the girl who got pissed out in class, crying out loud & wants to commit suicide. But now, i want to be that crazy Blue Eagles & Green Archers fangirl who loves to listen to Asian Pop, loves eating Korean food & could try to learn on how to speak Japanese & Mandarin. I just want to enjoy my new life now, i don't want to remember who i was, suffering a painful event in the past.

At least for now, i have friends & relatives who could help me to enjoy my new life, keeping me strong & making me better even i could think that some parts of my past life was wonderful. But what happened last October 16, 2006 was the painful day of my life. Whenever i think about that, it's like i need to reach for the MP4 Player, putting on my earphones, turning my MP4 Player on & ignore the past while dancing to the energetic tracks of Asia's legendary pop acts. (Like dancing to Super Junior's energetic track, Bonamana while heading on my way to July's heart-stopping UAAP games.) Anyway, recovery from the troubled past of October 16, 2006 is not just a 30% discounted price Nike-Ateneo Team Jacket away or a Super Junior song away or even an Ateneo-La Salle game away. It's just a set of positive thoughts away. But for now, it's time to recover from the trouble past right now.  

Brainwashed

"I'm brainwashed by both Ateneo & La Salle, i don't remember it anymore, sorry."

That was the first thing that rushed in my head last March 16, away from those times i could pass by on Katipunan Avenue, making crazy daydreams of myself wearing a Nike-Ateneo Team Shirt & Team Jacket while getting lost in the buildings of ADMU & thinking when will be the time i will wear an Adidas-La Salle Centennial Team Jacket to beat the rainy days & the chilly wind of the Christmas Season when someone from COLF asked me if i recognize my former classmates, i kept saying, i don't remember or i was brainwashed by ADMU & DLSU a lot of times. I said to myself that i don't want to attend those class reunions set up by my former classmates & i have nothing to do but to sit on 1 corner & think of crazy thoughts. I would even go & watch a live UAAP game whoever school will face Ateneo, i'm happy with the 4-5 years where life is nothing but in a blue-shaded road. I want to erase the dark side of my past life where it was nothing but misery, sadness & lots of emotional breakdown where it all began when my teacher pissed me off in class for not cooperating. I feel like i want to end my dear life back then, but i kept a promise to Rei, my BFF of 5 years to meet her on an Anime convention. I decided not to end up my life & meet up with Rei instead.

I started to think, should i tell Rei about this problem i'm on now, getting haunted by my former classmates to remember the times i was with them? I said i don't want to remember them since my life for 4-5 years was fun, they just want to destroy it. But whenever Rei calls up on the phone, i feel like they were not there, i was trapped in a room with only myself & Rei, talking about a lot of things. Like how Lelouch said upon his proclamation as the 99th emperor of Britannia, Obey Me Subjects, Obey Me World! The number of days i don't want to attend a class reunion is like i just want to be in any of the 3 game venues of the UAAP Men's Basketball Tournament, cheering for Ateneo & FEU with my family, decking myself in a full Nike & Nike-Ateneo Team Gear from top to bottom & trying to remember to sing 'Song For Mary' after the game. Just to be in the UAAP games for Ateneo is worth historic, like how come i spent 4 years of knowing the Blue Eagles huh? Chris Tiu was the one who started it all. But if my former classmates of mine wants to tell me to remember of those times after the day i got pissed, i just want to get out of the room & find Rei. What i want to remember is the Krispy Kreme Ateneo Donut, the Nike-Ateneo Team Jacket & nothing but Ateneo & La Salle. 

Give me time, but if you think i have Bi-Polar, i don't have, i just want to stick on the life i entered since La Salle's return on UAAP Season 70 back in 2007.

Filling Up Beauty

That's weird, i haven't used my pink-colored vanity kit for a long time since i decided to clean it up, ditch the items inside & wait for the right time to have it filled with some cute beauty finds. It's been with me for about 6 years since i bought it in November 2004. But somehow, i guess i was just getting started to find more beauty thrills since i can't wait to fill that up again. Last night, i was window shopping at Marcella's inside Trinoma during the Green Light Sale. I found myself lost in some nail art decors, fake decorated nails & of course, fake lashes which is known as falsies. I even want to think that if i could buy any one of these or all of these, it will be a total fill-ups in my pink-colored vanity kit aside from the cosmetics i found at Tickles since the Christmas season. (God, i really want to save my moolah & buy all of it so i can fill up my pink-colored vanity kit so i can get started to look cute, when it comes on going out with my friends or relatives.) So, it was the right time for me to re-fix myself on being beautiful. One more thing to do is to buy the refill for my pink-colored mini face powder. ARGH, i remember the days back from Pre-Freshman Year to Freshman Year to Sophomore Year & i stopped it in Junior Year, except for some lip balm & lip gloss thrills & having my hair ponytailed due to the live action version of Gokusen.

If you could ask me if my inspiration was my beloved Grandma, then maybe you're right. I started to check out her dresser, her collection of cosmetics like lipsticks, face powders, eye shadows, eye liners & so much more was her must have whenever she needs to look pretty on a special event. I remember the time she gave me her pink-colored Nivea Rose Lip Balm back on Valentine's day 1 year ago. That was the sweetest of them all. As of this moment, i was collecting lip balms & lip glosses. The Maybelline New York kiosk inside Landmark-Trinoma was intense, they have a lot of the makeup that i need. I was even researching on magazines that i read as of now. I was even eying for a tube of Maybelline NY Clear Smooth Minerals BB Cream which is loved by most Korean girls. If i would try it, i might look more of those cute girls in most of the Japanese superhero shows i watched in the past until now. Anyway, i was also aiming for the shades under the Holiday Glam collection for their Fruity Jelly Lip Glosses. Just what i need in case of an event that requires me to look cute, any event it will be. I just found out that Maybelline NY launched a lip balm that can change color. Got to buy that. 

So, am i ready to fill up my pink-colored vanity kit & make my grandma proud? Oh yes, i'm ready.

Ghosts Of The Past Life

My headache & heartburn sucks, i can't even think of what should i do next since i didn't want to answer a phone call from a former classmate of mine just to push me to attend a class reunion that might gone wrong. Instead, i would rather be talking to Rei, my BFF, wasting an hour or 2 on the phone. Is this what i called an 'emotional stress' breakout? Maybe, just because i don't want to get haunted by my past life of getting pissed out in class back when i was a High School Junior. For 4 years, until this year, i tried to forget about what happened back in October 16, 2006. I tried a lot of things to make sure i will forget the darkest day of my life like getting started to watch the UAAP games from Season 70 to Season 73, always cheering for either Ateneo or La Salle. A Nike-Ateneo Team Jacket is waiting in the wings before the upcoming season, a must have for the rainy days or just a cover up from visiting my former school. I could always think that a teacher back in Junior Year HS, my homeroom teacher pissed me off in front of the entire class, that sucks, right? Right. (Far from crying over the saddest scenes either on Meteor Garden or Power Rangers Turbo.)

Ok, during the darkest day of my life, i almost cried buckets of tears, even during science class, that sucks, right? The best time to cry is when La Salle defeated Ateneo. (Hmm, better, like i would say bye-bye to Zordon & Alpha 5 from the 3rd episode of Power Rangers Turbo.) But crying on the darkest day of my dear life almost destroyed me, but during the past 4 years, i got started to search for the missing links of my dear life. Do i ever think that my parents once lived in Katipunan Avenue? Do i have a fate connection to the Ateneo Blue Eagles since 2006? I would even think that my worst enemy is my past life, worst than La Salle. A teacher destroyed my dear life, who could ever thought she will do that to me? ARGH, i would rather excuse the next class reunion & instead, wait for July for the hot-stopping games of the UAAP. Whatever it takes, i need to move on, be a better person & stop thinking about the past, it might take a toll on me, especially on my health, emotions & life. Time to destroy who destroyed my life in school, but my weapon is not the Autoblaster Defender which i would love to use, it will be my emotions & a heart who is on fire.

Hair Play

Since last year, i started to play with my hair, comb it, play it, braid it, cut it, trim it, the list goes on & on. I could end up being an Asian Popstar or a Japanese superhero. There was even the time i discovered my Auntie's brown-colored hair mascara. I was even wishing i could have that, but Auntie Misato said she's using it. Never mind, i'll buy my own so i can have those dreams of looking like an Anime character or those brown-haired Toku heroes come true. Today, i was even thinking of buying a blow drier, so i can play my hairdo with assorted hairstyles. I really love to have those sexy yet not-so-messy curls like the ones i've seen on some Asian Pop stars or Japanese superheroes either on TV or on the net. Ok, need to buy the curlers who are the ones with a holder to hold the hair in place with the curlers. It could be better for me to curl my long, layered & thin hair aside from sporting a straight hair. But i wish i could buy a set of pink-colored curlers & a blow drier which is either pink, purple or blue, so i won't bother borrowing Uncle Kaji's blow drier the next time i went to Grandma's house for a vacation.

Anyway, if this is all about hairstyles, i really miss the times where i don the bedhead hairdo that makes Vic Zhou famous before he makes Maui Villanueva cry. But my mom doesn't want me to get that hairdo again because i end up looking like a boy, like WTFH? Never mind, if i get a long, layered & thin hairdo. I will end up buying 2 sets of curlers & a blow drier & curl my hair away, or even for the better, playing it like there's no tomorrow. Ok, let's see what i need to buy for my hair: curlers, blow drier & hair mascara, so i won't bother borrowing my Auntie's she needs it if she want to look younger like an Anime character. But for now, i would just wait for my hair to grow long & have it styled on the next time i went to the salon for a hair cut. Could i have my bangs trimmed too? I want full bangs anyway!

A Dimension Known As La Salle

"The reason why i didn't know about the class reunion last May 14 because i was taken to a dimension known as De La Salle University."

Before La Salle exchange blows with Ateneo on the 4th of June for a pre-season tournament, a month before the UAAP games which Ateneo will host the tourney, a revelation was told about myself, doing some honest lies about why i didn't attend a class reunion last May 14, i said i didn't knew it because i only knew is i went to some Tumblr sites related to the world of Chinese pop music & i exchanged messages with Carlo, a former classmate of mine who is in Taiwan, talking nothing but Taiwanese food, Pepsi & La Salle. I didn't even knew about the class reunion last May 14, i was stuck at home, surfing the net & reading my favorite book of the moment, Popped. (While my fingers are still crossed for the wish that my favorite Aunt, Auntie Misato bought what i really need so bad, 3 boxes of Collon in 3 different flavors & a copy of Sparkling K-Pop mag.) I thought to myself that i will be happy with the new life i was on right now, although i have a tight communication with Carlo via FB, i felt like i was lost in Taipei with him. But i guess it'll be better if i'm more lost in the buildings of DLSU like what i did for 4 years on being lost in the buildings of ADMU. 

A class reunion? I didn't knew about it, but never mind, i set a class reunion to be held on December at Trinoma, which is actually 1 of the 2 nearest malls from our neighborhood. I don't want to be haunted in the darkest event of my past getting pissed out in class, ending up crying. I want to be lost in a dimension where i can enjoy a Power Rangers DVD marathon while waiting for the next Ateneo-La Salle hardcourt clash. What happened last March 16 was a breather, i could almost press the panic button because if my former classmates would come near to me & asking me where in the world i was for 4 years, i could rather say nothing at all, trapped in the walls of silence. Good thing, i just ended up reading my copy of the Myx Mag K-Pop Special Ish while mom is paying my little bro's unpaid school fees. That happened in the morning, by night, with earphones on, music player on & ignoring what happened in the morning, i was on my way to ADMU, thinking that what happened in the morning is just nothing at all. But it would be better if i end up wearing an Adidas-La Salle Centennial Team Jacket & Team Shirt or a Nike-Ateneo Team Jacket & Team Shirt pairing with my favorite bottoms & kicks. (I'd even wish i brought the UAAP Magazine then, but it doesn't fit in my bag & Nico Salva's face doesn't have to be beaten up.) 

But anyway, this is life after all, if there will be a time i will go to my former school, to pay this time, my unpaid school bills, i would just be like a college student/athlete in vain. Turning on my Joshua Webb mode, earphones on my ears, music player on & ignore the world.

La Salle Mode

From May 26 to 29, Trinoma is on for the Green Light Sale which will be the biggest sale ever in the mall! Anyway, my mom told me to wear a green shirt during the sale, a treat will await for those who wear green, even you need to wear those La Salle tees. (Oh c'mon, i have a weird belief that Green means La Salle & not evil.) I have a La Salle tee kept in my closet, the problem is, it doesn't fit, so i need to lose a lot of weight to fit in to the tee. (It will be the first time in almost a decade if that happens, the last time i wore a La Salle tee was the one sold at SM & i was just a 7th Grader back then!) But still, i'm in focus of buying the Adidas-La Salle Centennial Jacket & Shirt. (Don't worry, my dad still keeps the promise that he will buy me a Nike-Ateneo Team Jacket, Size L to be exact!) Anyway, i got some green shirts ready for the Green Light Sale at Trinoma. The question is, what will i buy? I was even thinking about buying the now P99 Maybelline Fruity Jelly Holiday Glam Lip Gloss since i was more of a lip gloss freak. (Just because i collect & use lip balms & lip glosses. Lip sticks? I was thinking about that, the lipsticks of Maybelline New York is nice.)

I was even eying for the Maybelline NY Clear Smooth Minerals BB (Blemish Balm) Cream which is a total must-have for the Korean girls. It's an 8-in-1 cream. So, i was even thinking about buying it along with a blue-colored Clear Smooth Extra pressed powder. But maybe i will go for the lip gloss instead since it's only P99. Fine. I was even thinking on the day of the sale, i might buy what i just need. Just because during sales in most malls, the items are now reduced from it's original price to a rock-bottom reasonable price. So, i might ending up buying a lot of what i need. (While my fingers are still crossed, wishing that Auntie Misato just bought what i need after i bugged her a lot via text, ending it with a cute Konata smile. :3 ) Anyway, it's 2 days away before the sale, be ready everyone.

Strawberry Love

If i would take a break from chocolates, i would afford myself for a strawberry? Well, HELL YEAH! I'm recently addicted to strawberry ice cream, strawberry-coated Pocky (either regular or with strawberry bits, known as Tsubu-Tsubu) & any cute strawberry accessories which are oh-so Kawaii! I even remember back last year, i craved for some strawberry ice cream as a dessert during a family lunch affair. But, the best was back in 2007 where i craved for a strawberry ice cream in a cone. After Auntie Misato & i have a light pasta snack, she offered me some ice cream & i decided to have some strawberry ice cream. So maybe, after 3-4 years, i'll try to have that again for that the memories of a silent summer incidentally broke due to a strawberry ice cream. But for now, i would keep my fingers crossed since i'm starting to wish that Auntie Misato is going to buy me a copy of Sparking K-Pop mag & boxes of Collon in Chocolate, Cream & Strawberry. Pick-up date? If dad is visiting grandma on a Sunday & then he will buy a yummy breakfast treat. 

Anyway, when did i REALLY find out that i love strawberries? Maybe the lead character of Bleach, Ichigo Kurosaki has 2 meanings of his name, first, it means 'The One Who Guards', while the second is a well-known meaning, strawberry. (Ok, so, if you guys try to watch the English dub of Bleach, keep in mind that Ichigo's voice actor is that cute Ryan Buenafe-Nico Salva-Justin Chua mixed lookalike Chinese cutie from the Power Rangers which you girls like me have a crush on since MMPR-S2. If you get it, keep it, if not, are you kidding me? Argh, to make it easier, go & watch Power Rangers Turbo, watch out for that cute long haired, curled up cute boy whose color represents the DLSU Green Archers. But if you don't get it, FORGET IT! You will never see me in DLSU!) Ok, let's get back to the sweetest topic ever, i admit that in my dear life, during this year's mixed summer ever of heat & rain, i would rather eat a 1.5 liter of Selecta Super Thick Ice Cream in Strawberry. I could almost think i can eat it for 1-2 weeks or whenever i feel some ice cream cravings just to beat the summer heat. Anyway, maybe next weekend, during the La Salle Green Light Sale at Trinoma, i'll crave myself for a strawberry ice cream in a cone.

Adding Up Super Junior M

I started to think about when will be the right time to download the song, 'Dare For More' by the Pepsi 9 stars, wait up, it should be 16 in addition of Super Junior M! (Think Donghae, Hangeng, Henry, Kyuhyun, Ryeowook, Siwon & Zhou Mi donned blue-colored hair, have metallic eagle wings on their backs & donned in full combat gear like how F4 did in their futuristic RF Online-inspired Pepsi TV ad launched in Taiwan with an Ateneo Blue Eagles twist? Bring it on! Let's make the boys of Katipunan Avenue proud of seeing Taiwanese Pop Acts goes Blue-Blooded.) It should be 16 stars due to Super Junior M's addition. But thinking about how will the 5 original Super Junior members feel to be donning blue hair, having metallic eagle wings on their backs & donned in full combat gear will be a pressure, although they can sing songs in Chinese along with Henry & Zhou Mi. (Get this, the 5 original Super Junior members who are in Super Junior M are pure Koreans, how can they handle this pressure although they have 2 Chinese members in Super Junior M & the Pepsi endorsers from China & Taiwan are purely Chinese & Taiwanese. Never mind, let's think positive that the 5 SuJu originals can handle this.)

Why i chose the futuristic yet Ateneo-inspired Pepsi TV ad for the 16 stars concept? Oh c'mon, it's not just that they donned blue hair, metallic eagle wings & full combat gear that reminds me of the Mutant Eagle from last year's UAAP Season 73 teasers, it's like, 2007 is like the level up of everything, including the introduction of Super Junior M. But, seeing the 7 members of the 3rd Super Junior sub-group donning blue-colored messy spiky hair, having metallic eagle wings on their backs & donning in full combat gear could be interesting. (Of course, Super Junior M is not giving F4 a run for their money due to that the Canadian-born member of SJ-M, Henry Lau Xian Hua met F4. It's just like a friendly competition between the hottest pop group in Taiwan & the 3rd sub-group of Super Junior.) But, keep your fingers crossed, maybe the good peeps of Pepsi Cola in China & Taiwan might do this, bringing back the 9 stars & adding up Super Junior M to complete the 16 stars!

Chinese Pop Music Cravings

If it wasn't for last Saturday's accidental discovery of Tumblr sites that delivers nothing but Chinese Pop Music, i would rather think that watching some shows related to China & Taiwan is not enough to re-explore Taiwan, far from the F4-Super Junior M conflict of who's the best Pepsi Group Endorsers. Anyway, it all began when i stumbled upon the C-Pop Tumblr Directory site which they have the Tumblr sites related to the world of Chinese Pop music, from solo artists to groups, either in girl groups or boy bands. But instead of finding out if there's a Tumblr site related to F4, i rushed immediately to find any Tumblr sites related to Fahrenheit or Fei Lun Hai in Mandarin. Ok, so, i was surprised to see them in a new look.

 Attention! Whoever reads this entry & knows more about Fahrenheit or Fei Lun Hai, pay attention to the picture above. Are you guys curious who are these lovely yet handsome-looking young men? *ahem* From left to right, there's the leader of the band, Wu Chun dons his good ol' bob which is slightly trimmed, just like what he donned for the C-Drama, Hot Shot. Next to him is Aaron Yan who yes, got a haircut & donned a nice cute bob. Next to him is Calvin Chen which makes me curious if this is him or not due to that he dons a new hairdo, a shorter, spikier, sleek, stylish hairdo. & last but not the least, the boy on the right is Jiro Wang, far away from his spiky bedhead circa KO One & The X-Family, donning a shorter hairdo, a cute bob which is quite similar to Aaron's. But don't be fooled, this is still the boys of Fahrenheit, instead that they don cute yet stylish hairdos & don in nice outfits. (Ha, Jiro's outfit in this photo is more better, perfect for a men's magazine formal outfit photo shoot!)

Anyway, i just found out that Fahrenheit endorses Coke in Taiwan while F4 & Super Junior M endorses Pepsi, but i surely love drinking both soft-drink brands. (Next stop! Find some Pepsi ads of either or both F4 & Super Junior M! Let's see if Vic Zhou's bedhead has a match for Zhou Mi's color-coordinated outfit decked in a while jacket, black-&-blue striped long-sleeved top, orange pants & colorful kicks!) Ok, i'll try to save up a return trip ticket ready for Taiwan, but first, let's explore Taft Avenue, the home of De La Salle University for now.

Hearing Voices In My Head

I am not Bi-Polar but my mood instantly changed whenever i got pissed, especially when mom pisses me too much. I don't have a 3rd eye but i feel that a shadow of someone is going to be after mom. & the unexpected, i do feel normal, but i have been hearing voices in my head, a voice of someone who is going to be after mom. Nah, my auntie told me not to think of too much things due to that i'm always stressed whenever i get pissed. Like, who is this person who is going to get mom? I remember that early Sunday morning when i woke up & the electric fan almost broke out, my nightmare was almost destroyed. A nightmare that turned out to be a revelation of a dark secret: my mom has a child from someone else before dad? Oh no, after we used a different fan, before we go back to sleep, Puffy, my little sister asked me what happened next. I said about the nightmare, after i texted Auntie Misato about the family emergency that could destroy me, she was on the mall on that time, with her friends! (It happened on the mall!) She saw mom's other child & told him to get off from me. Then, Auntie told me to go home, pack up all of my things & stay for good at Grandma's house. But it's all just a nightmare in my head while sleeping that was almost destroyed by a fan broke out moment, just a minor mishap anyway.

Why in a time like this, i have been hearing a voice in my head almost everyday about mom's secret child? Is this for real or it's just one of the 1000 lies i did since last year because i hate getting pissed by mom. Maybe the truth is, the many times mom pisses me triggers me to think about lies, lies that could become true in the end, some lies can be true, maybe. But Auntie kept telling me via text to calm down & have a green tea frozen yogurt topped with strawberries, blueberries, mangoes, sliced almonds, crushed grahams & a strawberry wafer stick. Or even for the better, to make sure i will not get stressed after i got pissed by mom that triggers me to think of the dark side, she could buy me a copy of Sparkling K-Pop mag & 3 boxes of Collon in Chocolate, Strawberry & Cream. I was even thinking about buying a 500ml bottle of Pepsi due to that i was more of a Pepsi freak like Super Junior M. But the insane part, do i feel stressed or i was just trapped in a place where mom's other child turned out to be the one i hated the most? Like Sandara Park's ex-boyfriend before G-Dragon is my mom's other child? No way! WTF is he telling me that he needs my mom more? Fine, i have Auntie Misato as my security blanket.

But whatever it takes, this is just a lie, but if it's for real, i don't want to wake up in this nightmare anymore & i would decide to pack up my things & head to grandma's house before i think about heading to Taipei, Taiwan.

The Security Blanket

Ok, i just realized for myself that my favorite Auntie, Auntie Misato is my so-called 'Security Blanket', but i found out about this after almost 1 year? Does it all really started in the accidental visit to Ozine Fest 2010? I've even thought it's going to be an ordinary Sunday at the mall for me. But hell no, that changed it all, absolutely. Maybe it's more than the time i munched in for that Superstix Strawberry Wafer Sticks that i love to top on my green tea-flavored frozen yoghurt topped with strawberries, blueberries, mangoes, sliced almonds & crushed Grahams from Tutti Frutti, or by the time i begged her to buy me a DVD of Masked Rider Kabuto because i missed it, BIG TIME! (I was even thinking about getting a haircut ala Souji Tendou, ne? I'm talking about the hairdo i guess.) Yes, i suddenly found out for myself that i only watched maybe 2-3 episodes of KR Kabuto, so i decided to tell her to buy me a DVD of KR Kabuto so i can watch it while i need to stay away from a disaster waiting in the wings. (Oh no, here comes my stupid thoughts again that my Auntie kept telling me to calm down & have a FroYo. For me, it's: KEEP CALM & HAVE SOME STRAWBERRY WAFER STICKS!)

Anyway, i decided to write a letter for her yesterday. I would rather give it to her secretly when mom's not looking at me. But if she's not around the house, hanging out with her friends (& hopefully, trying to buy me a copy of Sparkling K-Pop magazine, i'll just slip in the letter inside her room or while watching Toonami on Cartoon Network, i'll just put it on her bed or her dresser.) I just did that for her because i realize that whenever i feel lonely or pissed due to my mom's crazy attitude like she's keeping something from us, especially to me, i just text her & ask her about what i need to cheer me up. I never felt this secured with her, like a combination of Pocky & a hot cup of Milo 3 in 1 For Adults, snugging myself in a brand-new discounted Nike-Ateneo Team Jacket on a rainy day while watching Masked Rider Kabuto on DVD while my hair is like an either Vic Zhou or Hiro Mizushima-inspired hairdo. (Or for the better, also while eating a hot cup of Lucky Me! Supreme in either or both Ka-Ri (Beef Curry) &/or Po-Ku (Pork Bone) while on a rainy day!) Somehow, i feel happy that i have a security blanket in my favorite Auntie, no one else can save me from my mom's brashes & when mom reveals a secret to us that could destroy me, my security blanket is just a text away.

The Girl Who Cried Wolf At The Salon

I don't get it, why is my mom complaining at me whenever i thought about getting a haircut? Ok, so, she started to complain at me when the next salon trip for a haircut will land me for a Vic Zhou-like bedhead hairdo that i want to don since 2003. Just because she complains at me for getting my hair shorter & ending up looking like a boy. (WTFH?) Now, i was planning to get the hairdo of Super Junior & Super Junior M member Ryeowook circa Pepsi-Super Junior M ad that was released either in 2007, 2008 or 2009. C'mon mom, i just want to get a new hairdo because i really hate waking up in the morning looking like Sadako. Somehow, grandma thinks it's better for me to don the short 'do because it's manageable, not unless i would go for the short bob like Henry Lau i think. But whatever it takes, i'm eying for a haircut! I swear to myself that if i can't be Hua Ze Lei, i would rather be Sailor Saturn! (But what about Adam Park? Argh, i just need to buy a set of rollers to get his look, i want the ones that has a holder so i can sleep on it & wake up the next day with curly hair!)

Sometimes, i hate it when mom complains at me for getting a boyish haircut. Nowadays, girls are eying to get a boyish haircut, aside from the usual girly hairdos like a long, layered hairdo just like Barbie Xu, but maybe not from her Meteor Garden days, but maybe from her Eternity days & her legendary Pantene ad circa 2003! Now, i'll just aim for Barbie's short hairdo that she don in an ad for Clear circa 2010. Of course, Shan Chai is married for real IN REAL LIFE! So, maybe the better thing to do so i wont hear mom complaining at me for donning a boyish hairdo is to don a girly short layered bob instead. But whatever it takes, i'm going to buy the curlers with holder. (Fine, i'm watching Turbo Madness on YT!) Anyways, whatever it takes, my trip to the salon won't spell a disaster on me.

Keep Your Head Down This May

A Nike-Ateneo Team Jacket which is 30% off from it's original price? Oh bring it on! Maybe i should hit a Size L. That's what i got when my little sister & i went window-shopping at the Nike Store inside SM City North EDSA last night. The Nike-UAAP Team Gears from Ateneo, FEU & Smart Gilas are worth 30% off from it's original price. Talk about a big deal. My little sister goes for a Size M while i go for a size L. I remember yesterday for breakfast, dad even promised me that he will buy me a Nike-Ateneo Team Jacket, ok, so he got my back. To finish off that certified Blue Eagle fan, but for me, as an Honorary Atenean, a Silverworks-Ateneo AMDG Dogtag will finish it off. What a better way to keep calm & enjoy the last month of summer before the rain & school kicks off by June. Just 2 months away from UAAP Season 74. Maybe around this month, it's about how to brag for your school than blaming that returning actor for what he did against me. (It's better to brash for your school than blaming that returning actor who broke a female member of a K-Pop Girl Group's heart! If you know what i'm talking about, please keep it as a secret instead, this is a basketball-crazy country & we're treating all amateur, collegiate & professional cagers like celebrities.)


After i downloaded TVXQ's new track, 'Keep Your Head Down' just today after i heard it on TV as i woke up this morning, i thought that yesterday was the insane of them all. My little sister & i were begging to our parents to buy us the Nike-Ateneo Team Jackets in size M & size L. That was also the day that i discovered Collon, a snack created by Glico, the Japanese food company behind Pretz & Pocky. It's a small barrel-like biscuit filled with cream filling in either Chocolate, Strawberry or Vanilla Cream. The price? Don't worry, it won't break the bank, it's almost P26, cheap, maybe i can buy all of the 3 flavors for less than P100. Sweet, a perfect Japanese snack treat aside from Pocky. So, maybe the next time i go to the grocery, i will buy that for myself. (Hmm, i guess i should also try what i just discovered last year like Alo Green Tea in Lychee, White Grape & Strawberry.) So, with a dad who has my back, he might answer all of my needs, if only i could finish my job right as what i promised to him. But for now, the last month of summer is here, i'm keeping my head down & keeping myself calm. Even we're in a basketball-crazy country, we don't know if a celebrity broke the heart of a fellow celebrity who is now more popular in a different country could be a shocking news than treating collegiate basketball players like celebrities. 


Ok, so, reserve me a ticket for Ateneo-La Salle 2011 instead.