Hearing Voices In My Head

I am not Bi-Polar but my mood instantly changed whenever i got pissed, especially when mom pisses me too much. I don't have a 3rd eye but i feel that a shadow of someone is going to be after mom. & the unexpected, i do feel normal, but i have been hearing voices in my head, a voice of someone who is going to be after mom. Nah, my auntie told me not to think of too much things due to that i'm always stressed whenever i get pissed. Like, who is this person who is going to get mom? I remember that early Sunday morning when i woke up & the electric fan almost broke out, my nightmare was almost destroyed. A nightmare that turned out to be a revelation of a dark secret: my mom has a child from someone else before dad? Oh no, after we used a different fan, before we go back to sleep, Puffy, my little sister asked me what happened next. I said about the nightmare, after i texted Auntie Misato about the family emergency that could destroy me, she was on the mall on that time, with her friends! (It happened on the mall!) She saw mom's other child & told him to get off from me. Then, Auntie told me to go home, pack up all of my things & stay for good at Grandma's house. But it's all just a nightmare in my head while sleeping that was almost destroyed by a fan broke out moment, just a minor mishap anyway.

Why in a time like this, i have been hearing a voice in my head almost everyday about mom's secret child? Is this for real or it's just one of the 1000 lies i did since last year because i hate getting pissed by mom. Maybe the truth is, the many times mom pisses me triggers me to think about lies, lies that could become true in the end, some lies can be true, maybe. But Auntie kept telling me via text to calm down & have a green tea frozen yogurt topped with strawberries, blueberries, mangoes, sliced almonds, crushed grahams & a strawberry wafer stick. Or even for the better, to make sure i will not get stressed after i got pissed by mom that triggers me to think of the dark side, she could buy me a copy of Sparkling K-Pop mag & 3 boxes of Collon in Chocolate, Strawberry & Cream. I was even thinking about buying a 500ml bottle of Pepsi due to that i was more of a Pepsi freak like Super Junior M. But the insane part, do i feel stressed or i was just trapped in a place where mom's other child turned out to be the one i hated the most? Like Sandara Park's ex-boyfriend before G-Dragon is my mom's other child? No way! WTF is he telling me that he needs my mom more? Fine, i have Auntie Misato as my security blanket.

But whatever it takes, this is just a lie, but if it's for real, i don't want to wake up in this nightmare anymore & i would decide to pack up my things & head to grandma's house before i think about heading to Taipei, Taiwan.