Brainwashed

"I'm brainwashed by both Ateneo & La Salle, i don't remember it anymore, sorry."

That was the first thing that rushed in my head last March 16, away from those times i could pass by on Katipunan Avenue, making crazy daydreams of myself wearing a Nike-Ateneo Team Shirt & Team Jacket while getting lost in the buildings of ADMU & thinking when will be the time i will wear an Adidas-La Salle Centennial Team Jacket to beat the rainy days & the chilly wind of the Christmas Season when someone from COLF asked me if i recognize my former classmates, i kept saying, i don't remember or i was brainwashed by ADMU & DLSU a lot of times. I said to myself that i don't want to attend those class reunions set up by my former classmates & i have nothing to do but to sit on 1 corner & think of crazy thoughts. I would even go & watch a live UAAP game whoever school will face Ateneo, i'm happy with the 4-5 years where life is nothing but in a blue-shaded road. I want to erase the dark side of my past life where it was nothing but misery, sadness & lots of emotional breakdown where it all began when my teacher pissed me off in class for not cooperating. I feel like i want to end my dear life back then, but i kept a promise to Rei, my BFF of 5 years to meet her on an Anime convention. I decided not to end up my life & meet up with Rei instead.

I started to think, should i tell Rei about this problem i'm on now, getting haunted by my former classmates to remember the times i was with them? I said i don't want to remember them since my life for 4-5 years was fun, they just want to destroy it. But whenever Rei calls up on the phone, i feel like they were not there, i was trapped in a room with only myself & Rei, talking about a lot of things. Like how Lelouch said upon his proclamation as the 99th emperor of Britannia, Obey Me Subjects, Obey Me World! The number of days i don't want to attend a class reunion is like i just want to be in any of the 3 game venues of the UAAP Men's Basketball Tournament, cheering for Ateneo & FEU with my family, decking myself in a full Nike & Nike-Ateneo Team Gear from top to bottom & trying to remember to sing 'Song For Mary' after the game. Just to be in the UAAP games for Ateneo is worth historic, like how come i spent 4 years of knowing the Blue Eagles huh? Chris Tiu was the one who started it all. But if my former classmates of mine wants to tell me to remember of those times after the day i got pissed, i just want to get out of the room & find Rei. What i want to remember is the Krispy Kreme Ateneo Donut, the Nike-Ateneo Team Jacket & nothing but Ateneo & La Salle. 

Give me time, but if you think i have Bi-Polar, i don't have, i just want to stick on the life i entered since La Salle's return on UAAP Season 70 back in 2007.