After getting haunted by what happened around last March & May when my former classmates haunt me this time via Facebook, tagging me on 3 pics related to my past life & trying to convince me to attend the class reunion, a turn-around was rushed in my head, trying to seek revenge against my former teacher at the class reunion! I admit i'm no female assassin nor femme fatale of sorts just to cook up a plan for revenge that could be either right or wrong. My heart says it's time to seek revenge, but my mind says take your time, i know i have a misunderstanding between myself & my former teachers & classmates. But thinking about the plan for revenge doesn't need any fancy hi-tech weapons or super-powers, all i need is to move on with my life, but i need to destroy who destroyed me. Destroy who destroys me, that was the rule. I don't know what's happening, quite like vengeance is ruling in my heart, the pain of the past still lingers in me, all i need is to destroy who destroyed me before i move on with my life, but if i don't need to set up a plan to destroy who destroyed me, it's fine, i guess i'm not ready to show up to them after what happened, i need some breathing space.
More than the 30% off discounted priced Nike-Ateneo 2010 or 2011 Team Shirt & Team Jacket, more than buying boxes of Pocky & Collon, more than buying an ice-cold bottle or can of Pepsi, more than getting the famous Vic Zhou pre-make Maui Villanueva cry hairdo aka the bedhead, more than the Ateneo & La Salle goodies, the dark memories of October 16, 2006 never fades. (Coincidentally last year on the mentioned date, i got the chance to watch the replay of the first ADMU-DLSU game circa UAAP Season 73.) Like a wound that will never fade, the memories of October 16, 2006 took a toll on me, i cry whenever i remember that event. All i could think when it happened during that time is suicide. But i can't do it. After 5 years, i have a better life, but still, those memories never fade. Came class reunion, if seeking for revenge is not the best thing to do even just faking a smile, maybe this is the time for acceptance. But sometimes, desperate times means desperate measures. But the better plan is to not show up on the class reunion instead of showing up, faking a smile & cook up a recipe for revenge. (No fancy weapons included.)
I might not have a bow with arrows or hi-tech weapons or state-of-the-art devices to cook up a plan for revenge, even though i could fake a smile, the pain remains. But if i'm not ready to show up on the class reunion, it's ok with me. But if i was forced, i have no choice, no faking of smiles please, Maui-chii.
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