Jitters

If Auntie Misato told me to attend a class reunion with my former classmates, should i show up or play a game of hide & seek? I have some doubts that the reunion will go wrong due to that they might tell stories of the October 16, 2006 tragedy, the girl who cried wolf in the classroom died after a Green Archer aimed an arrow on her. But the weird part, vengeance is still intact, after 4-5 years, where in the world am i? Am i still the girl who cried wolf or the girl who found out the truth about her identity as a blue-blooded Blue Eagle fan girl waiting for a Green Archer to come & shoot an arrow on me? All of those 4-5 years of not showing up to my former classmates makes me feel fine, enjoying my new life as a girl who tries to find her real identity. But if my parents, siblings & relatives forced me to attend the class reunion no matter how many times i say no, maybe i would rather to attend than to cry. I remember the time in March 16 of this year where my mom & i go to COLF to pay my little brother's unpaid school bills. I was staring at the window of the cab, headphones on, blasting some K-Pop, J-Pop or C-Pop songs in my MP4 Player while thinking about what to do in case my former classmates could caught me on that day, i have doubts in my mind, but i have the vengeance in my heart. I feel angry, guilty & at the same time, sad. I don't know what to do, i wish it's already UAAP day.

While waiting for the DLSU goodies to come from Auntie Maya after i found out Ace followed the plan B to go to DLSU, i was thinking of how will i show up at the class reunion, should i show up like the girl who cried wolf on October 16, 2006 or like being fresh from the UAAP games, will i have my hair long or tell the hairstylist to cut it short like Kit Taylor from Kamen Rider Dragon Knight? Will i smile or will i frown or wear a fake smile but inside, i just want to cry. Argh, all of that thinking twice makes me confused on what to do when attending a class reunion. More than thinking about crazy thoughts when window-shopping or shopping for Ateneo & La Salle team gears from Adidas & Nike like if Bouken Blue is going to wear the Nike-Ateneo 2010 Edition Team Jacket or thinking that Adam Park aka the cute Green Ranger from Power Rangers Turbo handles the color of the Green Archers well. Gosh, i don't know what to when attending a class reunion. But maybe i need to calm down, don't fake that smile you Little Miss Blue Eagle who has a vengeance plan in mind. Keep that smile real.